Well college is starting to wind down as the end of the semester draws nearer. Only two weeks are left and i will have finished the necessary requirement to get my associate degree. However, due to the near end of the semester i have gotten more free time. Which allows me to think about my life and where it is going. I do manage from time to time to distract myself with the occasional game or hanging out with friends yet however i still always fall back to my thoughts. It seems every time i find someone i care about something always happens to tear it apart. Just a week ago, i thought i may have found someone who i could possibly go out with and now wont happen. Why does it always seem to happen to me. I'm sick of it something has to change. I'm sick of this feeling. What must i do... Maybe all is lost, but i don't want to believe that. I won't give up hope i cant give up hope. Somehow i manage to deal with pain and keep moving on. I guess you could say its like an ability of mine. No matter how much i get hurt, or how much i suffer i move forward. Usually to more pain and suffering but i move forward. I hope that one day this pays off for me. But i guess time will only tell.